Tagged by Lyanne

Wednesday, 16 August 2006

Another tag! Thanks to my dear Lyanne.

10 YEARS AGO I WAS ...
.......... packing up my things at a company that I have worked for over 21 years and wondering whether I have made the right decision to quit and becoming a full time homemaker.

5 YEARS AGO I WAS ...

.......... having fun teaching people to dance, in an open park and enjoying their enthusiasm, the lake, the trees and the fresh air surrounding it.

1 YEAR AGO I WAS ...
........... was sailing a rough sea.

YESTERDAY I WAS ...

........... happy for the opportunity to visit with a friend.
........... unhappy with the telephone bill, for charges that I felt was not fair.
........... sad (every day I come home sad) seeing Mum .............................. and miss talking to her and going out together.

5 MOST RECENT SONGS I'VE LISTENED TO ...

........... Glory of Love
........... Unforgettable
........... Runaway
........... Love Theme from "St. Elmos Fire
........... After the Love Has Gone

5 SONGS I KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO ...

.......... All I Have to Do Is Dream
.......... Where Have All the Flowers Gone?
.......... Do Re Mi
.......... I am a Child of God
.......... Rose Garden

IDEAL PLACE FOR RUNNING AWAY TO ...
........... Home

5 THINGS I REALLY WANT ...

........... Love
........... Peace
........... Happiness
........... Wisdom
........... Health

5 THINGS I SHOULD BE DOING RIGHT NOW ...
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5 BIGGEST JOYS IN MY LIFE ...
........... Lyanne, Anthony (and many more other people, including you, my friend)

........... The Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ
........... Dancing, Singing (and many more other hobbies)
........... Teaching people to dance (seeing them dance happily)
........... My Mother

5 PEOPLE I TAG ...
Milky Bar Kid
Singapore Girl
Dad the KL City Kid
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Tagged by Milky Bar Kid

Wednesday, 16 August 2006

I didn't know exactly what 'tagged' mean, until Lyanne explained to me. Milky Bar Kid had tagged me with the following:
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next
3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Don’t you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag five people.

The next 3 Sentences after the 5th Sentence of page 123 of the Book of Mormon:

And now I, Jacob, spake many more things unto the people of Nephi, warning them against fornication and lasciviousness, and every kind of sin, telling them the awful consequences of them.

And a hundredth part of the proceedings of this people, which now began to be numerous, cannot be written upon these plates; but many of their proceedings are written upon the larger plates, and their wars, and their contentions, and the reigns of their kings.

These plates are called the plates of Jacob, and they were made by the hand of Nephi. And I make an end of speaking these words.

I can only tage the following 2 persons, the other people I have in mind have been tagged:
Singapore Girl
Dad the KL City Kid

Thanks to Milky Bar Kid. Have fun!

Am I allowed to choose the way I want to die?

Tuesday, 8 August 2006

It is one month since Mum had stroke. Diagnosed with brainstem Infarct, due to hypertension, and is now completely dependence and bed-bound, she was discharged (after 2 weeks at the General Hospital). Nothing more can be done, medically. It is now down to us, to nurse her at home.

As we took care of Mum day after day and looking at her almost lifeless, except for her hands, feet and eyes movements (behind the closed lids) at certain times of the day, I am wondering whether she is really in coma. Mum didn't choose to be like this. Mum would rather die than be in this state. She has always been an independent woman and reminded us to be self-reliant always. She is always on the move despite her age, planting vegetables, flowers, etc. etc. She was not prepared to be like this and we weren't as well.

It breaks my heart to see her nauseating when the nurses inserted a new NG tube through her nose and down her stomach on the day of her discharge. I asked the nurse "why?" and they said this is a common response of the patients.

I know this is part of our trials on this mortal world. But I still wish Mum did not have to be afflicted like this. If her spirit is in this body of hers now, I know she is crying out for release and I wish God will just take me and spare Mum.

I don't want to be like this. I don't want to die like this. If I ever have a stroke or afflicted in any other ways whereby I am totally dependent on tubes, etc. I want to be put to sleep. Is it against Heavenly Father's law? Wouldn't I be taking my own life and taking a easy way out of my trial in this mortal world?

Wednesday, 9 August 2006
I was thinking of the question. I know the answer! Regardless of what some of the world thinks, the answer is NO NO NO. I am not allowed to choose the way I want to die. That is accordingly to God's will. He has a reason and purpose for everything.