Sunday, December 09, 2012

Birthday Present

Wednesday, 25 July 2012

Rachel Gr....  knitted this pair of shoes and gave to me for my birthday present.   That was so nice of her.    I am not sure if I will wear it at all.   It is too nice to be dirtied.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Children and Parents

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

It has been a while since I last posted on this blog.   What I am going to share is my own personal feelings of the subject.

I am not a child psychologist nor am I undertaking any child psychology study.   I am thinking of the many pictures of missing "children" that I saw in the newspapers.   Some of the "children" have been missing for over 20 years and are now adults.

With the increase of technologies, information are available on the media (TV, internet, radio, magazines, movies, video games, music, etc.).   Children learn fast.  To a big extent, the example of their parents, relatives and the related parental guidance and supervision have a lot to do with the children's attitude and mentality.   There is also the negative influence around them - friends, peer pleasure.   And there is also their own unique characteristics.   Children think they know a lot and so they behave like they know a lot.

It is said children mature faster these days, but I said they are not matured mentally or emotionally.   Maybe physically, because they look like they are 17 when they are only 13 years old.   No thanks to the chemicals that were incorporated in the production of the food they are eating and drinking, especially the commercialised processed food and milk!

It is very sad to note that there are children who run away from home.   Some children run away because they could not take the emotional pressure of a nagging parent.  Some run away because of physical abuse.    I probably would run away if I am being physically abused.    But what is considered physical abuse?

When I was growing up, I was canned by my mother not just once but each time I needed to be taught what I did was wrong.    I was canned on the arms or the legs.   Mum didn't hit me on any other parts of my body.    I was canned because I stole money from her cupboard.     I was canned because I bullied my younger brothers (I don't have any younger sisters).   I was canned because I lied.      While she canned she told me why I was wrong.    And being scared of the canning, I didn't dare to lie, steal and bully my younger brothers anymore.

Did I consider that physical abuse?   NO.    It is not like I was canned until I fainted, bled or die.   The canned marks were there but it went away after a day or two.   Physical abuse was NEVER in my mind.

These days, it is considered physical abuse.

My mother scolded me a lot too.   I was still scolded when I was in my 50's.       I thought I was an obedient child and a respectful daughter but there were many things that I did that didn't jive with her moral values.

Did I consider that mental and emotional abuse?   NO.   I did reason and argue with her why I did what I did.     I was upset for being scolded so I withdrew from her for hours (when I was a child and a teenager) and for days (when I was an adult) but we always reconcile after that.     Mental and emotional abuse was NEVER in my mind.

These days, when children are being scolded, disciplined, punished, they cried physical, mental and emotional abuse.   So they run away.   If they can't run away by themselves, they refuse to go home when they got the opportunity to be with another family in another place.    They also refuse to speak to their parents or the people who are trying to raise them up their way.   I read of children who lied about their professed abuse and interestingly they were convincingly enough to get them out from "hell".

I am so sorry for these children.   If these children can't accept the kind of upbringing (say the normal disciplinary acts to a disobedient child) that they were born into, then how are these children able to cope, as an adult, in the real world? There are rules in the school, in the workplace.   Every where there are rules and regulations or the world would be chaotic.

Did I cane my own children?   I don't remember I did.   I don't like being canned so I don't canned them.

Did I scold my own children?   Yes, I do.    I don't like being scolded and it is not a good feeling after scolding anyone.   There are times that I can't help being verbally harsh.  Sometimes I got so angry that I could slap them on their faces but I can't bring myself to do that.   Instead I ended up crying to release my anger.   And yes, I cried a lot.

It is sad some children "disown" (cutting off) their parents, just because of:
They don't love me at all.    (Their definition of love is freedom.)
They scolded me so much.
They don't allow me to do this and that.
I am not allowed to go out with my friends.
They only want to work and work and help them with the farm, the business, etc.
Etc. Etc.

Children's definition of love is freedom.    They want:
No scolding or any disciplinary acts.
Give them whatever they want.
Let them do whatever they feel like.
Let them eat and drink what they want to.
Let them sleep whenever and however long.
No work because they are tired to do any work.
But they are not tired to watch television or sit in front of the computer the whole day.
Etc. Etc.

I am thankful for my mother, who loves me enough to cane, scold and discipline me where I needed to be.    God had me born to my mother and it is her calling to teach and bring me up her way.     There were good times and there were bad times.   And I am thankful I got to spend time with her until her dying days.

I have been born to one mother only, and she is gone.   How I wish she is still alive.   In a few years I would be sixty but I still cried because I miss my mother like I am a little girl.

I hope that no children would "disown" their mothers or their fathers.   When children realised they are wrong and want to reconcile with their parents, it might be too late.

As God had taught us in the 5th commandment (Exodus 20:12) "Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee".

I like Luke 6:37 which says "Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven"

2 Chronicles 19:6 says "And said to the judges, Take heed what ye do: for ye judge not for man, but for the Lord, who is with you in the judgement".

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Bad PBR (Primary Boot Record)

Saturday, 25 February 2012

I was playing scrabble (on the and at the same time learning a dance (from the for almost an hour) when the message of dumping physical memory flashes on the monitor.

Dumping physical memory had happened before and the operating system rebooted successfully all the time. But this time the computer could not reboot! This was what the monitor said:

Loading PBR for description 2... done

No boot device available
Strike F1 to retry boot, F2 for setup utility.

So I hit F1 and the computer tried to boot but ended up with the same message.

Hit F2 and changed the boot sequence. It didn't work either.

Took out the disc and the flash drive that I had on the CPU when the dumping memory happened and hit F1 again. Didn't work.

Switch off and on the CPU. It wouldn't boot the Operating System.

Pulled out all the connections and reconnect them. Can't restore the Operating System.

I didn't know what else to do, so I called for advice. Kim gave me 3 names of computer literates (in our church branch) whom I could checked with. Cathy told me that Tiffany (in our branch) could help. Peter named 2 stores that I could send my computer to look at. Stanley said to open up the computer to check for amiss connections. Clifford said to reboot from a reinstallation CD (that did restore the computer the following Monday). Unfortunately he was not free to walk me through the steps that night.

Since I could not google for instructions from my computer, I tried on the cellphone and amazingly this message popped up when I searched for "Bad BPR". I am glad that I copied the message because I couldn't find that message again. It said:


Oops! That usually happens only on DELL systems. This is because they have 3 partitions:
- A Hidden Dell Utility Partition.
- The OS Partition (Windows).
- A hidden Dell PC Restore Partition.

The error you are getting is due to a corrupt boot record.

Try this:
1 - Start up the computer and click F12 to give you the boot-up options.
2 - Insert Windows Installation/Recovery CD into CDROM, choose CDROM boot option and click enter.
3 - Let the installation process continue until it prompts you "Press R to repair" ... this should then take you into the DOS mode.
4 - Type in FIXBOOT and when prompted, press "Y" to start creating the new boot partition. If everything goes right, you should get a message saying the partition was corrupted and a new one was created successfully.
5 - Remove the CD and reboot your system, everything SHOULD be okay now.

NB. Don't try a FIXMBR or you'll loose your hidden dell partitions, meaning if you haven't backed it up onto DVD, you can't go back to the original factory settings if you ever need to.


I tried the reinstallation CD, it didn't work.

So I am thinking maybe if I did the diagnostic tests that were available in the computer, I would be able to know what is wrong with it. That way, it would help others to trouble-shoot as well.

So I run:
(1) The hard-drive diagnostics:
Drive O: Hitachi HDS721616PLA380 - Pass.
Drive 1: TSSTarp DVD+/-RW TS-H653A - Diagnostic not supported (I don't know what it means)
Drive 2: No device.
Drive 3: No device.
Drive 4: No device.
Drive 5: No device.
(2) MpMemory V0433: All 8 tests passed.
(3) Test of Devices in the System: All tests passed.

Then I run the following "All Systems"
(1) No Sound or Audio: 5 (analog sound playback, surround sound playback, central/LFE sound playback, front mic record and playback, rear mic record and playback) of 8 tests failed. (Don't know what they mean!)
(2) Problems with Fan(s) or System Seems Hot: All 7 tests passed.
(3) Problems with USB Device or USB Device Not Detected: All 9 tests passed.
(4) Abnormal noise coming from my system: All 3 tests passed.
(5) Mouse, touchpad or pointing stick non-responsive: The only 1 test passed.
(6) Cursor Movement is Erratic - USB Mouse - Mouse Test: The only 1 test passed.
(7) Cannot Boot the OS: There were 36 tests, however 2 went untested, remaining 34 passed.
(8) System Lock Up: There were 43 tests, 2 went untested, remaining 41 passed.
(9) Hard Drive Errors: All 10 tests passed

I didn't continue with the following "All Systems" testing because I felt that the testings I have seen so far seem to be the same. I am wasting my time!

(10) System Shut Down or Reboots Unexpectedly - CPU Fan - Fan On/Off.
(11) Windows Blue Screen.
(12) Problems With Memory
(13) Intermittent Shutdowns - CPU Fan - Fan On/Off Test.

Finally I did run the last test:
(14) Video Corruption: All 8 tests passed.

Monday, 27 February 2012

I am so grateful I didn't have to take the computer to any place or anyone. I am so grateful that Tiffany sent her son to the house to look at the computer instead.

Finally, Tyrnan restored the Operating System for me, using the reinstallation CD, using the steps that I received through my cellphone last Saturday night.

Tiffany said she did not need the diagnostic results, which took me more than 12 hours and would have been more if I run all the tests! She said she had to look at the computer and then go from there.

Incidentally, I missed watching Tyrnan did the step 1 and step 2. I thought I did exactly what the instructions said for that first 2 steps last Saturday night, but no response. Maybe I didn't choose the CDROM boot option from the F12 boot-up options.

What a scare! I am glad that my computer is working again!

Thank you Tiffany for sending your son. Thank you Tyrnan for fixing it.

Thank you to whoever you are, who posted that message of rebooting the Operating System using the Windows Installation/Recovery CD.

Thank you Kathy for ordering the Reinstallation CD Microsoft Windows XP Home Edition Service Pack 2, back in 2009.

Someone left the Dell Dimension E520 to me, in 2009, without the original Windows Operation System. The computer was then about 1-1/2 years old and there were some problems so Kathy ordered the reinstallation CD for me, just in case. The computer is now 4-1/2 years old. If it wasn't for this CD, I probably have to spend on a new Windows Operation System or buy a new computer!